Tuesday, March 11, 2025

honey, i'm home

 home is haircuts and orthodontist appointments

it is spring and i am thawing

home is a 33 milligram edible washed down with vodka

packing cones in the car

who has a light?

who's driving?

i wonder if there's a show this weekend

you understand me better than anyone else could

"oh, the problem was that i drank on an empty stomach"

my best friend threw up in the dunkin' donuts parking lot last night.

"i need to pee"

okay, lets go to dunkin'.

aksel look away i'm going to make myself throw up

"aksel cover your ears" i say

justin holds their hair back

i'm crossed in the seat next to them

"gabby please tell me that you brought gum"

i'm getting them gum for when they finish

"yeah. mom's been doing better lately.

but she's turning into grandma."

home is ████████████████████████

"i'm so excited for the summer"

"yeah, me too"

but there's a sorrow in the air

i'll be back for two weeks. that's not enough for them.

home is taking the dog for a walk and using the stove

only __ more nights



Monday, March 3, 2025

heather

 I get my compulsions from my grandma.

chewing gum, brushing teeth, washing hands.

i can feel the germs on my skin

the taste in my mouth

I carry tissues in my pockets.

"Gabriella, you forgot to turn the light off."